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Wednesday, July 29, 2020

Hope and Faith

I Hoped that you would put me first
Waiting patiently
Wandering aimlessly
Looking for the light at the end of the tunnel

Wishing you would see the agony behind my smile
Believing in you while all the while you continued to believe that I was unaware although she had made it very clear.  You're only reason for staying was to break the cycle
A dual parent home for them is what you desired.

While the cycle may have been broken for you
 the mending  of my heart was no where in view. 
You continued to believe my strength would endure.
 Hope made me weak

But...

My faith helps me to endure.
The  lies the pain and deceit
Laid it all at His feet.

I Hoped that you would finally see what it would take for me
To regain faith in your ability to do the only thing I ask of you...

Take care of my heart...

Now I truly understand that on this hope I can no longer stand.  This job belongs to only me my heart is my responsibility.

Hope made me feel weak while becoming wise.
Faith made strong producing a genuine smile.