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Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Exodus

I have been toying with the idea for awhile
Struggling with the urge since I was a child
Retreating to a place deep inside of me
A place that only God and I can see,
A place of order without chaos
A place where only I am responsible for the cost, 
Not allowing my emotions to make me hopeless
Where the worth of my love will be marked priceless
I now realize no matter how hard I try
This is the place where life can just pass me by
 I do not have to pretend in this place
I do not have to fight for air or space.
In this place I can dwell with my thoughts
Relive the battles I have fought
Some ended in victory while others in defeat
I can no longer show others what they want to see
I must to be willing to reflect me
Will it always be pretty and nice?
Will my retreat come with of price?
Of Course but nothing in life is free
I am tired of paying my freedom and happiness with no gain
The only thing I have to show for it is heartache and pain
Wake Up!….Some things are just not meant to be!